Holygeez,
Glad to see your not giving up. Something for you to think about. One day on the way home from church...the hubby and the kid's were just razzing me, trying to get my goat...well, with trying to kick the habit...I didn't think it was funny at all, and they were relentless....I lost it. I ordered my husband to pull over into the next gas station...I was buying a pack of smokes, and that was that...all three members of my family burst into laughter. I must have been quite a site with loosing all composure and control.
My thought process at that moment was I thought I could not handle feeling all that anxiety, frustration, madness all balled into one big huge "MADNESS"...I was out of my mind. My husband did NOT pull over into any gas station, and we proceeded home...guess what...it took all of 5-10 minutes for this huge wave of anxiety and frustration to go away, and then I was fairly fine, with one or two hairs standing up on the back of my neck (residual from their taunting).
Stress is ALWAYS going to be in our lives....how do non-smoker's deal with frustration and stress without cigerette's. Many corporate VP's and Presidents do not smoke and yet they have pressure every day. If other's can do it...why can't we. You have to find a way to deal with stress without smoking. This takes patience with yourself, lot's of deep breathing and the knowledge that it can be done.
Good for you for continueing on...but remember...Not One Puff Ever from now on....NOPE!!!!!!
Kaiti
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 59
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,308
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $324.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3