Hello, Im Dawn, 34 yr old married mom of 2 awesome boys! The last few weeks I have gotten signs that I need to quit smoking. All I talk about is how awesome my kids are, how great they are in school, sports and at home. Everything I say is true too.. they Rawk! Before I have made excuses why I cant quit this time... to many to list and no reason to. The only thing I need to list now is the reasons why I should quit. I wont lie, I am scared. Scared that Im losing a part of me if I quit, maybe that seems odd but in a deep way, its how I feel. I could always rely on the time out to get outside to smoke. Now I need to find another reason to get a time out. I have quit before... errr I should say I have tried to quit. I do have a goal, besides seeing my two boys when they are getting grey hair and I can tease them like they are me. hehe! Cancer runs in my family, as close as me.... I had cervical cancer and had a hysterectomy in 1999. So you are probably asking.. wow woman, why didnt you give up those cancer sticks then? Well I did, then my husband went to Iraq so I tricked myself into believing that smoking would ease the tension.. WRONG! Last night as I watched the news was the last draw! Over the last few weeks, Ive seen signs all over, TV, road signs, different slogans that could be read as (Girl you need to stop now)... well last night when I saw on the news that Saddam was finally put to his death I was able to breath again.. I took a few deep breaths and had tears, for joy for the Iraqi's and when I described my feeling to my husband I said "I can breath again"... something that wasnt as clear since the moments before he told me he had orders to go to war. Well I am breathing a sigh of relief and in a different sense I am breathing with less weight on my heart. Now I want more of that weight lifted. I want to breath fresh air again!
I hope this all makes sense to you, hope to get to know you and be smoke free together!
