I just had to leave a movie this evening, and since I was driving I had to force two of my friends to leave too. I was having such a good day, hanging out with two friends I haven't seen in ages, and we decided to go to a movie. Having eaten junk food all day, I started not to feel good, but I decided to ignore it, but couldn't (esp. since the movie wasn't very good). And what's worse, I was sitting next to the wall, ****hest from the aisle (what was I thinking!??!!) So I couldn't stand it anymore - I thought I was going to be ill - and told my friends we had to leave. I felt sooooo bad! They just thought at first I had a stomachache, but then I told them I was having a panic attack, and immediately regretted it. I know they think I'm crazy and I'm sure they're probably talking about it now. (I made it home OK, and basically feel fine, except I'm crying because I feel so stupid! Why couldn't I just stay? I know I ruined everyone's time! I'M SO SICK OF THIS!!!!!!! Sorry, I live alone, so I don't have anyone at home to vent to, and it's after midnight so there's really no one to call. I shouldn't say my friends think I'm crazy - I don't know that they do, but I just felt like I couldn't explain to them - they're both guys I've known for ages and I'm kind of like "one of the guys" to them, so I feel like I have to put on a tough front, and not act like "the girl". I'm so tired of being like one of the guys, I'm so tired of being "just friends" with every single male I meet....sorry, that's a little off the subject, but I needed to say it.
Sorry for rambling......
betty
