I am grateful for every smoke free day I have. Some are tougher than others but I'm making it.
Even at 61 days I take nothing for granted because 'ol nick kicked me a grand one today. I haven't felt like this in a while. The only difference now is that I'm able to tell myself this is only TEMPORARY and really believe it. Besides make supper and tidy the kitchen(I'm off work for March Break), I slept and watched TV, which of late hasn't been my routine.
For a while that little voice in my head kept saying - "You should go out for a walk its lovely outside, you should doing laundry, you shouldn't just be laying there." Do shades of lazy come into play here. That's what that little voice was inferring. It started to get me down until....I had to shout out....to no one but myself....
"HOLD UP ONE MINUTE!!!!!"
I've done something marvelous for myself here, I DON'T smoke anymore, and if that means I need a lazy day, SO BE IT!!!! I will not allow myself or old nick to get me down.
In the beginning of my quit I would have been quite apt to say, "Oh God, I can see tomorrow being no better than today."
Now, after the rough day I've had, I can say, "Yes God, I can picture tomorrow being better."
And the nice thing now is.....I can truly believe it.
Time is the greatest healer on this quitting smoking journey. And patience...don't forget the patience.
Bummed out but NOT broken, because tomorrow will be better!
Jan
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 61
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,850
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $549
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0