hun please don't beat your self up, and i hope that you are feeling better soon. sorry buti don't have any advice, i just wanted to send you a hug.
some times we have to go back to remind ourselves of what we are fighting for. i had the same, no panic then it hit. i feel like they kind of go slowly, 5 one month, 2 the next.
i hope that things get better for you soon,
hang in there, your doing great,
big hugs,
becca.
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