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Depression while taking antidepressant


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Thanks, it means a lot. I know what you mean-sometimes I read other people's postings and they sound so down and out and when I am feeling positive I can be like "no, don't give up, things do get better, you'll get there" - then I have days like yesterday and I feel like I just don't have an ounce of strength left to get myself through this let alone help anyone else. Today I am feeling better (a bit). I don't have that awful fatigue and headache that I had for the past few days. It just scares me how low I can get-yesterday I was really thinking about suicide. I would never do it but I was really wondering what I was living for. It's crazy how you can go from having it all to feeling like you have nothing left to live for. Today, I know that is not true, I have plenty to live for, but if you told me that yesterday I wouldn't have been able to come up with many reasons for staying on this planet. Sorry, I'm not trying to be scary- today is a new day (thank God!) and once again I will try to fight this with everything I have left. I have heard though that antidepressants can bring up suicidal thoughts in some people... That scares me because although I have had anxiety and been depressed about having it, I have never felt so depressed about everything. Think it could be the meds...?
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Hi Sarah! You're right about family not understanding, it's not like they don't care, they just don't get it. Yep, if I could stop thinking about it I certainly would! And you're also right about the people here, I never ever knew that all my symptoms and fears and doubts were shared by so many others. I try to be positive, sometimes when I get down (like today), I look at my previous messages and wonder how I felt good enough to say those things! And I KNOW all those things are true! Even though I KNOW that the bad times don't last, when they come upon me I tend to only see the bleak present and can't see that the episode will soon be over. I think that's part of this whole thing, not being able to convince ourselves of anything for too long. Maybe that's the key, faith in ourselves, but how do we get it? Keep on trying Sarah, I'm right behind you!
21 years ago 0 128 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hi Hopeful, Thanks for the reply. You sound really positive and that's what I need to hear right now. I just got off the phone with my husband (he lives in Holland-we're working on the immigration thing-haven't seen him since we got married in the summer). and he's like "just stop worrying" and "go out and see your friends." Like if I could just stop worrying it would be the first thing I would do. Don't ya love how people without this disorder think it's just so easy to turn feelings and fears off and on! Kinda insults our intelligence even if they mean well. I'm so glad there are people that understand. This group of complete strangers has probably been more support for me than my friends and family together. Not that they're not great, they just don't understand. I swear, I would give my right arm, literally, to be free of this!! Thanks again for your positive words. Sarah
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Sarah, I go thru that to, doing so well, wondering how it ever got that bad. Then, it hits you and you sink even lower. Don't feel so bad and stop punishing yourself. We just gotta keep trying! If we keep trying we will succeed, or we can give up and fail. I know your life seems so different now, IT WILL BE GOOD AGAIN!! Believe me, the good times come back - they always do. Tomorrow may be that good day you need so bad. Yes, I have gotten depressed on a antidepressant, it only happened a few times and then I was fine. We know how you feel, you certainly aren't alone around here! Take care!
21 years ago 0 128 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Thanks Trish, I guess setbacks are part of the process of recovering. I quit caffeine (coffee and cola) about 6 months ago and it's not near my time of the month. I'm starting to wonder if it's the medication because today I just can't seem to quit crying. I feel sooooo messed up! I hope tommorrow I can wake up and be positive agian. Sarah PS thanks for posting the live chat- I went and it was pretty informative :)
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Sarah, Yes, it happens to us all. I can be doing good making small steps, and bam one day nothing, and get all down. But I have to keep telling myself that I am my own worst critic or enemy. I cannot beat myself up over one step back. Nor can I let myself become the disorder, I may have it, but I am not it. I usually gets bout of depression around my menstrual cycle, this could be something you are experiencing too. As far as headaches, are you abruptly stopping caffine? I know that cause me headaches, and I had to taper myself off caffine, and if I dont eat properly, skipping meals, etc., I will also get headaches. And remember, you might be feel some effects from the medicine, but it takes sometimes 6 weeks to reach full potential, dont give up hope! Trish
21 years ago 0 128 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
I guess I've posted here a lot lately-I guess it's just a good place to vent and find support from people who understand. I've been doing well for about a week, maybe even a bit more. I started on Celexa 3 weeks ago and I thought it was working so well. This week I've just been feeling like **** though. I've been majorly fatigued even after 8 hours of sleep and my arms hurt all the time and now I'm starting to get these extremely painful headaches. I feel like I'm 100 and I'm only 26. Today I was walking through the grocery store with my mom and I thought to myself - this is my daily outing, trailing around behind my mom in a grocery store! This is what I do. I started to think of who I used to be - spontaneous, pretty much care free, driven, excited about things and above all, independent. I have moved to towns where I know no one! I 've lived overseas, twice! I've travelled alone and with complete strangers. I was doing really well in school and on my way to a career that I loved. I started crying right there in the grocery store like an idiot. To be honest I didn't even really care. Now I have been reduced to this. This ****ing disease has stolen my whole identity! I am not this person that I am now! I just don't know how much longer I can fight this and stay strong. How can you be doing so well and feeling so positive about getting better and then be back to square 1?! Has anyone else experienced depression while on an antidepressant? I mean, I know they don't block out all feelings but this is a bit suprising that I can still feel this low! Sorry to be such a downer. Please respond if you have advice or a similar situation. Sarah

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