Update:
Last night I went to my friends, I was helping her chaperone her daughter's 16th birthday party. When the kid party was over, the adult party started. It was funny because even before the adult party started, I was really thinking about cigs alot. Fortunately, we did not have any, so all I could do was think, and with coming up on my four week anniversary this week...I really didn't want to blow it. So I muddled through and kept busy running snacks and things downstairs to the teenagers (also this was a great way to keep an eye on them). I realized throughout the course of the night, that it wasn't really the cigerette I wanted. It was the special alone time with my friend in the garage that I was missing. Each hour was a small victory for me, but it also became a little harder. But I knew I had to get one night under my belt with her without smoking. I knew I was strong enough to handle it, but at the same time, my thoughts of cigerette's were constant all night. I think I ate more than the teenagers to keep my hands and mouth busy (paying for it today).
As the night progressed and the sweet 16 party came to a close, the adult party started. The wine and beer and tequila was flowing. My friend and I sat in the comfort of her cozy warm livingroom, talking and laughing for the next few hours. We talked about smoking and how she is ok with never having another one again (she is a closet smoker and can go weeks without a cigerette). We talked about my quit and we talked about how a cig would be really great at one moment, but we both looked at each and said almost at the same time, "we don't need it"...of course this sent us into hysterical laughing....(and now I'm not sure why, I think it was the tequila.) My sister and brother-in-law stopped by and they both smoke....after being there only about 15 minutes...they went outside to smoke and announced if anyone wanted to come and smoke...I was actually a little perterbed that they would do that, knowing I am quitting and knowing that I am under the influence....but I didn't go and neither did my friend. We stayed in the warm house, poured ourselves another glass of wine and stayed smoke free.
When I woke up this morning, I was a little "under the weather", but I woke up still smok