As I keep looking back at my life I can't forget this period when I was in highschool that I used to smoke alot of marijuana. I liked it back then... no problem. Then I tried LSD a few times(One of the biggest mistakes I think I made in my life). The 1st couple times I did it with some of my old friends & didn't have bad trips. My senior year I would smoke with just about anybody & I started hanging around with this crowd I really didn't fit in with to say the least, did LSD with them & had the worst trips I ever had in my life, My mind was racing like a million thoughts per hour for hours at a time & I sat in the backseat of someones car by myself going outta my head which the car had strong red lights on inside the whole time) Like an idiot I still did LSD a few more times & I kept on having horrible trips, had some bad flashbacks alot ...even in some of my old jobs & public places It seemed like light sensitivity & being around the color red made me have flashbacks & my heart pounded fast a couple times...ever since I couldn't even smoke marijuana it gave me kinda the same feeling no matter who I smoked with years later(I'm am by NO MEANS condoning drugs at all I am only on what is prescribed for me I haven't even drank for almost a year) total paranoia, mind racing & wanted to isolate myslef or keep my thoughts in. One time I actually did faint after smoking one day. Before I knew what I have now(Panic Disorder & Agoraphobia & now I've been extremely depressed & real low...) I was always wondering what was going wrong with me, my muscles used to twitch alot & I felt trapped in chairs alot of times & stayed quiet when I smoked around people...... Just like some of my ongoing panic symptoms I've been having for 5 years...I have a very hard time even sitting in a barber chair..I panic & can't wait to get out of the chair I get sentitive to light too alot, When I think alot about stuff & anyalyze myself & all that I get tingling in my muscles & MY HEART skips & sometimes POUNDS, ALWAYS FEEL DIZZY. LIGHTHEADED & FAINT almost all the time no matter who I am around!.... I graduated from highschool in '95 & I know that was along time ago when I used LSD but I never saw a doctor about it back then like I should have..it was like a constant battle