FaithFreedom, thank you for your words. I do have to develop a positive way of having a talk with myself. It's so strange. I'm diabetic and was diagnosed 4 years ago. I've gone for years now without putting a biscuit close to my mouth. And I love biscuits. I've stuck to a very strict diet and have kept my blood sugar under control. Before that, at age 22, out of the blue I had a seizure. As it turned out, I have a scar in the vision center part of the brain and have to take medication to prevent seizures for 24 years now. I don't like taking meds, I don't like taking insulin, and I don't like not having sweets or carbs. But, my attitude was far more positive and I've managed both illnesses very well. This shouldn't be any different for me but it has been. I didn't approach it in the right way with the first "haunting" that came out of the blue. I do have to be more positive. I believe, for me, that I have to keep in mind that I'm not being deprived of cigarettes but rather, I'm depriving those cigarettes from controlling me. I have to be the one in charge here. That's the only way I'm going to make it. That was the attitude I had with two illnesses and, being an addict, I believe that's the attitude I need to have to have a successful quit. And I need you and everyone else to tell me how horrible I look with a smoke hanging out of my mouth and how horrible I smell. ha ha ha I'm laughing but I'm serious too. It helps me to be reminded all of the time because those reminders help me with my attitude about quitting and the talks I have with myself. Thank you all for your help and understanding. I appreciate it so, so much. Now, today I'm going to have more positive self talks. Love to All and Good Luck to All, Tutti
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/14/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 123
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $5.58
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13
