Oh jazphoto...u must be after my heart. I understand completely. When it comes to drinking.....oh yeah. It is the most acceptable activity in my town to go out for drinks and I don't drink at all. I used to, till I was drugged, now I have no taste for the stuff. But if anyone around here asks, and I let them in on the fact that i don't drink, they think I'm nuts, or that I think I'm better than them. What a laugh, I take this as though they know they are doing something wrong, most of the prople here are drunks, and it makes them feel better to see someone else doing the same thing. Like smoking, or doing drugs. As for people wanting to see you fail...that's why no one this time knew I was quitting outside of the people I live with. (I had to warn them, afterall)I got so sick of hearing, 'I'll believe it when I see it', 'For how many hours this time', or a flat out 'Yeah, Right'. So I did it. For me. Because I wanted to live a smoke free life and not be a slave to anything, anymore. This quit is the first time I have lasted over 12 hours without lighting up in 14 years, and now look at me....working on Day 21 and still going strong. Thanks to all my friends here. I know that without the full support I have gotten here, I would not have made it this far. And that's not to take away from what I have done. I knew I needed help, that's why I came here. And it was given, full-fledged, and no questions asked. Everyone here has been right where you are, and we know what it's like to feel helpless against this addiction. So we help each other. (Like the thread on art, I have come so close to giving up because I can't paint/draw lately. But I know it's just a phase and it too will improve. I was an artist long before a smoker.)Just keep going, keep fighting, and we will all be here for you. Even if the people you know in everyday life are not. Anytime you need to chat, just send out a post. We can get through this. Tara
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/15/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 21
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 534
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $173.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 31 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8