Hi Beb. Welcome to our quit family.
When you need to vent feel free to come here and do it. We can take it. Most of us were exactly as you just described when we first quit. It's called HELL week and they don't call it that for nothing.
Take some deep breaths and drink a lot of ice water. Helps with the craves. As far as being a real xxxxx try to stop and think before you speak. If you can't do that, just go ahead and tell everyone exactly how you feel and what you think of them and then blame it on the quit :p .
I'm sure your loved ones know you are going through a rough time. Just apologize a lot. That is what I had to do. This is a temporary stage. There will actually come a day when you will all look back and laugh about it. My family and friends have. I'm sure they still love you and just want to see you quit.
Quitting changes your life but the changes come slowly. You have to hang on tight because it is so very, very difficult to break free of the addiction. You also need to remember that this is an Addiction. Learn all you can about it.
The things that helped me in the beginning were, this site, read, post, read, post and read and post. I would read about people who had lung cancer or other smoking related diseases. Look at the pictures too, scary stuff there. Kick, scream, fight, yell, cry, whatever it takes, just don't smoke. N.O.P.E. Not One Puff Ever. That is how we all quit. One day at a time. One step at a time.
I hope this helps. You will get to your new world. Just don't smoke and you will make it. It really does get better.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 355
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,116
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1242.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 31 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1
