Hi Deli -
Never worry about what you share here - we're here to listen and to support you, friend...
Gentle down the energy around yourself, Deli... This is a tough time for you - be kind and loving with yourself and take some time to ground yourself - to just BE.
I found that there were times during my Quit process that I just needed to take away from the world - to just get off the world. Ya know - time just for ME - whether it was to meditate, take a warm bubble bath, read a good book, get lost in a TV program for a laugh, or just to take a walk.
Focus on what's important - who's important to you, and give yourself the time and space to ((feel)) the feelings that come up.
Smoking kept a constant smoking screen around us. Feelings were lost in the smoke screen - emotions were 'softened' by the same smoke screen.
Take the time to nurture yourself, dear one.
And about rewards ~ they are sooooo important in the Quit process, Deli. Do a search here for 'rewards' and read about how important they are - how needed they are... Rewards can be the softest, most gentle pillow we see on sale at a department store (one of my BEST rewards!) and a reward may be a new CD of soft, soothing music, to take you to sleep. A reward may be time with a friend when you are usually busy with other things ~ or it may be buying a sweet candle for bathtime, friend.
Most important ~ wrap your compassion around YOU like a soft, loving pink blanket of love, friend. Taking care of ourselves is so very important during our Quit process... and it makes the journey softer, calmer and much smoother...
Love and Blessings-
Healer
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 196
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,888
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $911.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 29 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34