Niks... You are fighting the good fight. Don't give up now. You can smoke anytime you want but aren't you glad you choose not to. It is a horrible addiction. Nicodemon is getting really upset and laying it on thick right now because he knows he's about to lose another addict. That's right... You are almost to the point where things start to get a whole lot easier. I've been around a long time now and I've seen many, many quitters go through this. You have to dig deep inside you and grab every bit of strength you can get your hands on. That demon wants you bad and your junkie thinking is working over time.
One is too many and 1,000 will never be enough. When I was around day 55 I went through this too for a period of about 3 or 4 days. I even posted just like you. The post is called "This Really Sucks" and it did suck. If I can find it I will bump it up for you. Then a few days later, I woke up feeling free. Really free. You are so close now. Don't give up on yourself. You are fighting for your life and it is worth it.
I use to say:
When I smoked, I wanted a cigarette all the time; now that I don't, I only want one some of the time.
Hang on tight Nics. You can do this. One step at a time, one day at a time. Chin up. Kick, scream, cry, break dishes, whatever it takes, just don't smoke!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 391
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,838
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1368.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 34 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54
