Ann,
Congratulations, quitting smoking is one of the hardest things that you will ever do. And like childbirth, others can try to help and offer suggestions, but the work is all you.
Somethings will be easy and others you just have to live through. One thing that helped me was when I realized that by allowing Junkie thoughts to take up residence in my mind, I was just making myself miserable. I just heard it from you in this post. You are hanging on to the thought that at some point in the future, there might still be the option of smoking. (I would like to make it 100 days atleast)
I found that as long as that thought existed in my mind, the cravings would come back and dwell in my head for hours. I finally had to convince myself that no matter what, Smoking was no longer an option. I would resist unto death first. So when the cravings came, and I was tempted to give in I would say to myself "hasn't been unto death yet."
It still hasn't been unto death, and I am still not smoking. But I found a new thought the other day,
[color=navy]If your ship hasn't come in, swim out to it![/color]
Hang on you will feel better some new day.
Cheryl
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/4/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 362
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,688
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1031.7
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7