Ya know, i never even considered quitting. Never had a reason, never wanted to do it, never had any intention of quitting smoking before the day I died. The last time that I quit and started again, i looked at the cigarette and said "If I smoke this, then i'm never ever quitting again, and I will smoke for the rest of my life."
Since then i met and married a great non smoking man, and I had a baby, and I won custody of my 4 other childrne form their abusive father, and really did a ton of exciting things with my life. I smoked all the way through it.. all of it, and never once considered that it needed to be any different.
I don't think i'll ever forget the day I decided to quit forever and commited to it, and i've already told that story a bunch of times in here, but a coupel of months before that I got my first notion that I wanted to quit.
I took my baby out for breakfast. Hubby went to work early, and the kids were in school, and it was just he and I. We got to our table, and he wouldn't get in his high chair, and just clung to me. I had some anxiety, and actually looked aorund me to see if there was anyone aorund that seemed judgemental enough to say something or give me dirty looks if I lit up with a baby on my lap. (<-- Just typing that out makes me want to cry, and appologise, but I dunno who to appologise too.)
I never did light that cigarette with the baby on my lap. I went on with breakfast then focussing on enjoying my time with the baby and not considering the cigarette, and then I was ready to quit right then, right that day. It took me a couple of months to actually quit after that, but i've done it and I can cuddle with my baby anytime that he or I wants, and there's nothing at all getting in the way.
That's Freedom... i had no idea that I didn't have freedom until that one day.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 22
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,263
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $286
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11
