Michelle,
Don't feel down buy your setback at church! I would consider myself to be religious, but haven't been to Mass in almost 4yrs now - or at least not regularly due to my anxiety attacks.
My opinion is that God will judge you on who you are and how good a person you are and won't hold it against you even if you can't attend church.
And about your meds, if you felt you had to take them that's ok, that's no major setback! That's what they are there for, for when you need them. So don't get yourself down about it.
I've just begun the Panic Program yesterday, so I'm hoping to take things one step at a time. Have you ever heard of: Robert Holden's book "Shift Happens"? It's quite interesting reading. I'm reading it at the minute and find it a good read if nothing else.
It's a book about "more" – more happiness, more success, more love and more confidence. It is about personal alchemy and inner transformation. It shows you how to unblock blocks, transform thoughts, release fears, drop struggle and embrace a new level of creativity and joy.
Maybe you should give it a read too if you can find it?
Anyhow - down let this minor setback get you down. I am pretty much house-bound with my anxiety at the minute, which I hope to undo over the next 12 weeks with the help of the 'Panic Program'
Murrough