Dear Cinda
seems like you have similar feeling that i have at the moment --(a few days where worse than today) Some say 30 day pit, it has also been full moon etc etc
I do belive its a combination of all--> I have recently got hold of the ALLEN CARR book and have almost finished it, ( have you read that one??)
He talks about the brainwashing that smoking causes etc etc
It is a terrible addiction!!
The worst is --> it only takes 1 CIG to get hooked!!!
The fear is the worst...> did not really understand i actually still have it in me until i read it yesterday!
But, im not giving in--->
I have smoked 26 years VERY HEAVY (30-44 a day)
Given up numerous of times before, some only lasting an hour!!
I do have terrible mindgames--get sooo anxious eg, start thinking about death of loved ones, or im alone, nobody cares, feel like crawling out of the skin, try to find excuses for having one, its like being schizo>?? i think.. ?? These mind talks are terrible..
Cinda i do believe it will pass --we just have to let go---
Cinda post often and keep strong
ann
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/6/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 37
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,670
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $588.3
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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