Hey guys, Well I am on day 2 and to be honest with you I am beginning to wonder if its all worth it.. I am getting no support from my partner or my daughter... I flipped at tea time tonight and told her she will have to cook her own dinners from now on, she's 6. For the past 2 weeks she hasn't eaten a full meal that I have cooked for her, and to be honest I feel that I am wasting my time doing anything for her... All my partner has done for the past couple of days is sit on his ass reading a book... I am the one who has cooked, cleaned and done just about everything else.... I am so sick fed up. Sometimes I wonder of he lives with me for the sake of having someone to pick kup after him... Which I do, every day. I know I should be grateful that he is allowing me to give up work and go back to uni, but you know what?? I really want to tell him to move out... I will get a new job and deal with it all myself.... These are not new feelings, they are just amplified by the lack of nicotine in my system I know, but if things weren't right before, this isn't gonna sort them is it???? I really feel like packing a bag and taking off for a day or two, coming home when I feel like it..... What do you think?? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 38 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �4.34 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59

thanks for the feedback guys... I really hate this feeling... It's nice to know that others have been there... I wasn't talking about failing on my quit.. I am a horrendous perfectionist when I set my mind on something. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 38 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �4.34 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

I have my reward system all nicely set up.... I get a daily reward of a long soak in the bath with essential oils every evening... I seem to be doing a bit better now, the mood swing has disappeared, although I would love some time alone (with the exception of having my bath) but if I ask for that I get heaped with loads of questions as to why I want space etc... Thankfully the other half goes back to work on Monday and my daughter will be at her fathers for the next week, so I will have all the space I need... Don't worry, I'm keeping up keeping it up.... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 41 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �4.34 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 35

Awww *hugs* i said the exact same things about Brian on my first couple of days. Take some deap breaths, and you know what? don't deel with it right now. You're in no shape to be making lifelong decisions of any kind. Just do your best to be civil, and if that means hiding, then do it. This WILL pass! I promise you! Your central nervous system is recovering and shaking off nicotine, the nicotine will be completely out of your body tomorrow. Your cells are recovering and belching toxins out into your system.. there is so much going on inside of you, an of course it's going to mess with your head, and I know that your head don't feel messed with right now. I was certain that I had grounds for divorse jsut 5 short days ago. LOL!! It'll pass! You're doing really great and congratulations for making it all the way to your second day!

LOL you guys tickle me! And give great advice...thank you! Ame hang in there,good to hear your feeling better. Enjoy that 6yo,she will be a teen before you know it....and dealing with a teen, my friend,is big drama! LOL Keep venting...... Correen

Hey there there breathe in breathe out. congrats on day 2 this is quite an achievement. This is the hardest thing you will ever do, you can do it you have already proved that, you have been smoke free for 2 whole days and this is the worse time. It will get better, as for all those feelings, this is normal, this is your quit not your partner's so concentrate on yourself, keep busy use the tools on your left, drink lots of water and breathe deeply. Tomorrow will be another day and you can do this one day at a time .Post often, we will be here for you :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/13/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 698 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $184 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9

You are no different than the rest of us! Go back and look at some of our own posts (including myself!) It wasn't but a few days ago that Breaking Free was contemplating domestic homocide :gasp: Since I have gained weight along with the quit and truly have no interest in cooking anymore (which I LOVE to do ordinarily) I have stocked up on the Healthy Choice and Lean Cuisine for myself. For the kids I buy frozen Banquet dinners or---better yet---Kid Cuisine. They can microwave it themselves and I am considered the BEST Mom cuz they love them. The only unhappy person is my husband. Right now he is running neck-to-neck with yours in popularity, so I really don't give a damn if he eats or not! :eg: Laugh it off----------otherwise we will spend the rest of our lives crying :( [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 67 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,381 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $536 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43

[quote]I am beginning to wonder if its all worth it..[/quote] Yes it is all worth it. I promise. [quote]I am getting no support from my partner or my daughter... I flipped at tea time tonight and told her she will have to cook her own dinners from now on, she's 6.[/quote] Isn't it horrible the things we do and say because we are junkies and we are craving our drug of choice? Kick this addiction and you will not have to be concerned with ever saying something like that to your 6 yr old again. [quote]For the past 2 weeks she hasn't eaten a full meal that I have cooked for her[/quote] ...and she is still alive!!!! It is going to be ok ... don't let that junkie thinking take control. Fight it with everything you have. You can kick this addiction. [quote]All my partner has done for the past couple of days is sit on his ass reading a book... I am the one who has cooked, cleaned and done just about everything else.... I am so sick fed up. Sometimes I wonder of he lives with me for the sake of having someone to pick kup after him... Which I do, every day. I know I should be grateful that he is allowing me to give up work and go back to uni, but you know what?? I really want to tell him to move out... I will get a new job and deal with it all myself.... These are not new feelings, they are just amplified by the lack of nicotine in my system I know, but if things weren't right before, this isn't gonna sort them is it????[/quote] You said it! ... these are not new feelings! That's exactly right. They will be there whether you smoke or you don't smoke. No more relying on a drug to ignore your full thoughts and emotions. Is it overwhelming & painful at first? It was for me and still is at times, but you know what? It is REAL. For the first time in goodness know how long what we are feeling is real. It is reality. How can we deal with things when our reality is clouded by a drug? You keep on keeping your quit amethyst_isis. Don't listen to that junkie thinking and keep learning how to identify it. If you need a pat on the back ... let us know ... we will be happy to cheer you on. Sometimes we just need our struggle to be acknowledged. Whatever you need, just ask. I think you are doing great. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date:

Amethyst_isis, Glad to hear your feeling a little better, keep us posted. Don't be afraid to do what it takes to keep your quit. Glad to hear you've got a reward system, you deserve one! You're putting forth a lot of hard work into your quit! Keep us posted, Danielle ___________________________ The SSC Support Team

Amethyst_isis, Reward system, do you have one? Maybe your reward for your second smoke free day could be to order in? Many members have also found it helpful to keep a journal. This provides them a place to vent their frustrations instead of reaching for a cigarette. Good luck, Danielle ________________________ The SSC Support Team