loves2fish
yes prayers,
indeed, coming your way
kate, know, exactly, what you mean about it being easier with no cigs or opportunity around or about.
myself, i am having severe cravings- all mental- i know this- it's just sneaky, nicodemon tricks- i have not lived up to my expectations of the way i should be as a person in at leadt 11 days- i am physically exhausted and though i have gained no wieght- i feel much more spongy and soft than prior to this- i hated my body before this- i hate it even more now- and i am sad- crying a little here-
but i know in my heart of heart it's going to be okay,
i will triumph,
i have junkie thoughts, "like just a few cigs will help-energy will return- the fat, bloated feeling will go away"
i know it's so not true,
so now that i have typed this out,
i'll go to bed- no cigs
but hope, i do have, i have lived through this before, i'll live through it again
only difference being is that come day 24, when i am finally, feeling the zest for life, no man will be ever to take that from me, b/c i have no man, which also makes me sad and feeling so undeserving of love,
but i won't smoke and i know this will pass
soon i will be high as a kite on life again
yes
soon, it will happen
it will happen for all of us in the first month soon
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/12/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 12
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 468
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $78
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44
