I am in dire need of support in being a nonsmoker, again. This last time I went 3 1/2 years without a cigarette, but after picking up again, my marriage is in jeapordy, and I don't know what to do.
I promised last time I quit, that the next time I picked up a smoke, it would be the end of our marriage. I conventiently "forgot" that promise, and now that I got busted for smoking again, I am pleading for a reason for her to not end the relationship.
Rightfully so, she feels betrayed, lied to, let down and dissapointed, all at the same time, and is just tired of it, and I can't say I blame her.
I don't want to end my marriage of these damn things, but I gave into a craving, and picked up after 3 1/2 years, and am very dissapointed in myself.
She knows all about addictions, and is a recovering smoker herself, but I'm not able to convince her that it was simply giving in to a craving, and not anything more.
Any suggestions as to why she should give me another chance? I honestly hate this addiction, and have been able to stay away from another addiction sucessfully for almost 9 years, one day at a time, but this one is kicking my ass!!!!
