YEAH!!!!! I have made it to 6 weeks. And believe me the way the
weekend went I wasnt so sure that would happen!
Why? you ask. Because it was %$^#@ hard! I went down a patch level
and my coping skills went right out the window. I found myself standing at the kitchen counter last night just crying - shaking with
tears. My poor husband, he asked me what was wrong and I couldnt get the words out (I must have looked quite the mess, shaking, knife in hand - was cutting veggies for dinner - not being able to speak - litterally).
So, I went to bed REALLY early - just wanted to get the day over with. This morning when I got up first thing I thought was "I would love a smoke". Now where is that coming from????? It has been 6 weeks and a relatively easy 6 weeks for me - I would have to say that this is really my first major break-down. Why now? And I'm getting it all at once. BItchiness, depression, anger - even the gas is back LOL!!
Man I could ramble on all day. Wish I could figure out how the instant messenger works!
Some advice would be lovely. Well maybe not advice, maybe support is what I need. Support and some hugs.
I just cant stop crying!!!!!!!!! Anyone who knows me would tell you that its not like me at all not to be in control.
Ok, the baby is awake I have to go.\
Skidoo
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/1/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 42
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 510
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $231
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 51