hi 4my2girls
thank you so much for the encouragement. yes, this time i will reach out, i will not repeat the mistake i have made in the past, trying to bulldoze the way all be myself. :) I have share my quit with my sister over MSN, she is really surprised that i have joined a support group, or maybe even with the fact that i have told her. To her n perhaps most people in my life, i am a 'on my own', stubborn & private person. Hence, it came as a surprise for her, but she is very very happy for me.
So i may not be very used to letting it all out here (as i mentioned above of my nature), but i will try. :) Probably the way i was taught when young was not to bring my problem to others, you know, its like you deal with your own s@#t kind of mentality.
And, thanks Shevie... you have really prepared me for something i havent thought of... the erractic mood changes... ohhh... that would be something for me... cos i get out of control whenever i feel that i cant take charge of my mood. And loneliness too...have made a few friends here, however, this place is so big, hence really difficult to plan for meetups,etc. :) besides, being a few months here doesnt really allow me to make friends close enough to pour out all the nasty stuff :) I think it is easier here in the support group cos we all have a common reason to meet up here...that is the kill the deadly addiction. :) And ya, my hubby will be surprised,very very surprised... cos he is still in the dark about it. And he will never imagine that i have quit. He has been putting up with my habit cos he knows that i wont quit, and i wont like to be told to do something i dun want to. but i know each time he see me chainsmoking, he is worried but dare not say anything other than 'smoke less'.
na
beginning to see the light
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/14/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -2
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0