You're welcome, Queen. I'm glad it shed some light on your situation.
You might want to look around here for posts made by Golferman. Over a year and a half ago he blew a 10 month quit for, essentially, the same reason you have had problems - he didn't like the grouchy, militant person he'd become. So he intentionally started smoking again in order to get back to where he had been so he could start over. Sounds a lot like what you've experienced. You'll find his best stuff in this General Discussion forum.
I suggest you make a list of all the things you like to do, all the things that make you happy. These will be your "often" rewards, those you give yourself every few days, or even daily if you want. They are how you are nice to you because you are doing something wonderful for yourself.
Next, make a list of things you want. Jewelry, trips, vacations, furniture, car, clothes, a day at a spa, etc. Things you would probably say "I'd really like that, but I just can't justify it." Well, now you can. These will be your milestone rewards. 30 days is a milestone, so you're already overdue. 100 days or 3 months is a milestone, as are 6 months and a year. Feel free to throw in any others you desire. This is your quit and you should reward yourself as you see fit. I'm just making suggestions.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 343
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,875
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1303.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 64 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 2 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25
