"What the heck happened?????"
What happened and what is STILL happening is that you're constantly putting yourself BACK in withdrawals! If you're going to quit, then you have to completely see it through. You decided to quit - good choice! Now, all you have to do is stick with it! You don't have to make the decision again because you already made that one.
Quitting gets easier and easier over time, but you have to allow yourself to get over this addiction... that's not easy and it takes time, but it IS doable.
Do you have any kids or anything? Any nieces? Nephews? Children anywhere around you? If a child is screaming and you give it what it wants, it shuts up for a little while, but it's also learning that all it has to do is scream and cry for what it wants and it will get it. Then, if you DON'T give in, then it just keeps screaming and crying more and more and more! That's what you're doing to yourself here!!! Your addiction is that screaming child and when you give it what it wants, you are "teaching" your brain that all it has to do is send out some unpleasant signals throughout your body and it will get what it wants - nicotine.
If you quit giving that "child" what it wants, then eventually, it will shut up and quit trying so much! But, you have to be dedicated to the quit. You cannot have "just one" because that just doesn't work. It MUST be N.O.P.E. - Not One Puff Ever. Stick with that method, and you'll be fine.
Try this to help you stick with it... next time you are thinking about giving in, come here and post and wait for 10 responses. By the time you get that many, your cravings will most likely be gone and you will hopefully be better able to handle the cravings. Whatever you do, never give up on quitting! This is the best thing you can do for yourself! Welcome to the group!
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 148
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,715
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $488.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55