Sorry to hear you're still having problems, shadoww. Wish I could say it ends *here*, but I can't. Everyone is different. Do you get out much? Or do you spend most of your time at home looking at the housework that is piling up? That can be quite depressing in itself. Then you add the natural depression that quitting often induces and you've taken a one-two punch right on the chin. Unfortunately, depression is a self-feeding thing. You're depressed so you don't do what needs to be done and then seeing it not done makes you depressed so even less gets done, ad nauseum. Did you notice the phrase "natural depression that quitting often induces"? This probably has a lot to do with your attitude right now, shadoww. The question is how to stop it. I'm going to assume you don't have a history of depression and this started after you quit smoking. If that's not true, then you probably should see your doctor. But if it is true that all this came on after you quit smoking, then I suggest you get out of the house for a while each day. Walk around the block or go window shopping (don't have to buy) or any other excuse you can come up with. Just get a change of scenery and some fresh air. While you're out, decide one thing (small thing is OK) that you will do when you get back home. Then when you do get home, come hell or high water, you do that thing. Don't pay any attention to anything else that needs to be done, just that one thing. Once it's done, pat yourself on the back for a job well done. The next day, repeat. If at some point you ever feel like taking on another thing that needs to be done, then do so. And pat yourself on the back when it's done also. You smoked for years, shadoww. Don't expect a quick recovery. The general consenus here is you must be quit for a year to consider yourself recovered; you must experience all the seasons smoke-free. Medical research on the brain's recovery from nicotine addiction bears this out, that it takes 12 - 18 months for the brain to recover from the damage smoking did to it. But it will recover and that's the important part. Shevie [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 285 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,719 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1083 [B]Life Gaine

I was there. You will get beyond it. But you will need to be patient and apologize to everyone in advance. Josie's right. Relax yourself. Admit to yourself and to your husband that you are in no shape right now to deal with things. You are in rehab. Let the house go. Let yourself go. Put on some music. Dance around. Go for a walk. This is all about you right now and your recovery. It's okay to not keep up with things right now. You are healing. Do healing work. Find meditations on line. Go to a wonderful place near water. Learn deep breathing and conscious relaxation. Blow some bubbles. Be a child. You will get through. You just have to do it without committing any felonies. Take care of you right now. Let the rest go. Rusty :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/13/2004 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 445 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 12,478 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1557.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 61 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 36

Chicken, You will experience this now and later. It is normal. I usually tell members to relax themselves. It actually works and makes for a better you. Take some you time and let us know how you do! Keep Strong, Josie ______________________ The SSC Support Team.