And it was okay. This may sound funny but tonight I felt like I could already breathe batter! Maybe its just my mind playing with me but who cares, It feels better.
I had a very rough morning but once I got to afternoon and evening it wasn't so bad. I figured my evenings would be worse but turns out not for today anyway.
I am using the gum but am trying to only use it when the urge gets bad. I kind of feel like I am defeating the purpose by using the gum but I want to be able to do this and that is what I feel is going to help me.
I feel like a non smoker. When I am talking about it I refer to myself as a non smoker, I think that is a first. Don't get me wrong, I have been fantisizing about having a smoke all day...I hope that is normal, I think it is. I still am mourning the relationship we had, even though it was a disfunctional one! LOL! I know I have a long journey but all in all today was okay.
Here is to the rest of my days being smoke free.
