Hello:
i am new to this site and have begun my journey 13 days ago. I have smoked for 37 years and now have found the strength to forgo the "pleasure" of this activity.
At this writting I am becoming concerned. I always knew that I was covering my feelings with nicotene, but the reality of my mind-scape at this juncture is disturbing.
Memories are appearing in my mind and effecting my quit with unusual clarity. In particular I am reliving the pain of my divorce and the feelings of loss that, to this point, have been dealt with by self medicating with cigs.
I know that quitting is a very personal issue and all people no doubt react differently. However, perhaps someone out there has had this clarity experience and has a word or two of advice. I am determined to do this and will reach 14 days tomorrow. There seems to be no place to put the grief and pain of that event. As you might expect, I did not want the divorce, but I thought I had accepted it and struggled down the road a bit...Now I do not want to become some kind of backward looking emotional wreck because I do not have "my friends" to help me through...