Hi everyone,
Tomorrow will be a week smoke-free for me. As posted earlier, my husband was of no help in my dire moments of losing my mind trying to deal with this. My biggest saviour besides all of you has been my five year old daughter;Julia. For some reason, she actually "gets" all of this. First, let me give you some history on my littlest child. She is a spit-fire. She is the opposite of my sweet ten year old daughter. If you tell her not to do something she will do it just because you said not to. She is "cool" before her time. She lies constantly, not to avoid getting in trouble but I guess, just because. Despite all sorts of efforts to get her to stop lying, she has kept on telling the tall tales. After seeing her mom going crazy in just the first few hours of her quit, Julia declared "Mommy, I am going to give up lying so we can quit something together". I really didnt give much thought about it at the time but like magic, my littlest girl has stopped lying. It hasnt been easy for her, unlike me. Sometimes, I will see her start to say something and stop herself-like she was going to lie and made herself stop. Every night she crawls in bed with me at eight o'clock, her bedtime, now mine(I dont like staying awake any longer than I have to this week!)and she strokes my hair and tells me things like "You're doing a good job not smoking mommy" and "I am so glad you don't go out to the garage to smoke now mommy" and "mommy now you smell nice". I don't know if she realizes what her impact has made on my quit, but it is huge. Even more so, is her desire to show me that she has the determination to give up something that she enjoyed doing(lying). My daughter is more wise than I ever could be.
It is really amazing what she has taught me this week. After all of the crap I have faced this week with my cravings, craziness and unsupporting spouse-she and all of you have been MIRACULOUS in this hard journey!!!
Denisey ;)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/14/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 6
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 134
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $30
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 35 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58