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18 years ago 0 96 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
You are both so right. And you have the stats to prove it. Congratulations! I know, it gets, "easier". Truth is.... 1) I do not want to have to reach this point again in my next quit, I mean...That would be a NO BRAINER Heck, I already have 42 days. 2) I am unhappy being a smoker...That is why I quit. 3) I need to change my life anyway. My kids are all in school now and I have lots of time on my hands. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 42 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,058 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $472.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 35 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24
18 years ago 0 96 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hi fellowquitters. I feel the need to RANT, RAVE VENT,call it what you will...PLEASE DO NOT LET ME DISCOURAGE YOU. At day 42, I feel as if my quit is in jeoprady. I am tired of feeling angry,depressed,getting fat,blah,blah,blah. I am beginning to let little moments of "so what" creep into my thinking.So what if I smoke? The only thing keeping me together is the memory of my last quit. I had 4 years in and couldn't even remember what being chained to the thought of having/needing a cig was like. After those 4 years,I began by having a puff with my beer (only once or twice a month). I kept that up for 6 months before I admitted to myself that the damage was done and almost overnight decided to quit fighting it and was back to 25 cigs a day within the week. It took 4 months before the full effects of not breathing,wanting more and more,spending way too much time away from my six children,not to mention the money..and the smell...or lack of it...began to sink in....finally,reason to quit again. Its hard to believe that in such a short time,I could be hooked as bad as when I smoked for 20 years. I told myself that it would be easier this time around but I was fooling myself. Nicotine addiction is a monster.It's cunning,'It's strong, It's a lying SOB. I am so tired of fighting this monkey on my back. That's where this support group comes in.....No one else really knows how difficult this road is unless they too are travelling it. Why am I fighting this? I have become a miserable person,I am so annoyed with my kids, my husband, my life....If I don't get a grip soon, I feel like I might cave. Isn't it crazy how we think that just having a smoke can fix all this? Maybe when I smoked I was able to avoid seeing my life for what it was or is. :( :mad: [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 42 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,057 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $472.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
18 years ago 0 96 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Just an update.... I am feeling a bit more positive today. I am so pleased to be an ex-smoker. Isn't it funny how when we are down,all we can see is the negative. Rereading my post today, I can remember that these down days came when I smoked too,so obviously,smoking is not the answer. As we distance ourselves from that last cigarette and allow ourselves to feel what we need to feel in order to bring about change for the better...Only then can we grow and gain insight,knowledge and wisdom. Am I making sense? I just know that we will all become better people as we journey along this road to freedom. "Fakin it til I make it". Cindy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 43 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,082 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $483.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 35 [B]Seconds:[/B] 14
18 years ago 0 228 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hey Cincere, know what your going through. I have been feeling the same way for the past few days. I guess that's why I haven't been posting allot because I figured that if I slipped I wouldn't have to face the truth and everybody here.. It's allot to let down. let alone letting down me, my fam and boyfriend. I am wondering if all of us 40 dayers (so not a word but let's use it ayway) are hitting a wall of some sort. You, Me, Red, Exroller hummm, somthing to ponder... But I also look at it this way if we were to crack wouldn't we have done it by now.. and Look your still here posting away. So with all that said, maybe all the ash kickers should hold on tight we can do it!!! :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,368 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $292.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45
18 years ago 0 481 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hey Cincere - looks as though we're hitting a rough patch at the same time - interesting as I notice we both quit 4 January...go right ahead and rant, vent your spleen....check out my similar thread [url=http://www.stopsmokingcenter.net/support/viewmessages.aspx?Forum=10&Topic=27281]here[/url]....we WILL get through this, I know we will - hang in there!!! Well done for getting back on the wagon!! [img]http://www.lightintheblack.co.uk/forum/images/smiles/respect.gif[/img] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 42 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 508 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �50.4 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11
18 years ago 0 663 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
I'm trying to find an analogy to all of this but I'm at a loss. It seems like we have to debunk each of our addiction's landmines one by one. Some are easier than others. For instance, we know we are doing the best thing possible for ourselves but our junkie thinking tells us - oh, just have one, you're stressed (for whatever reason - could be traffic/woke up on the wrong side of the bed - could be more severe - lost your job or something). Well, we can look to those ahead of us who have dealt with this. Some have slipped and some have held on. Those who have held on keep telling us it is worth it. I don't know why they'd lie to us. I doubt they really wish they were smokers again and just forgot how to light one... We have to take each temptation and destroy it, or if we can't, just don't smoke, and offer up to your higher power/faith(whatever you want to call it) that which you cannot control and move on. Hopefully it will fade into oblivion or at least go away until we're strong enough to combat it. Sometimes we have to trudge through the muck to get to the other side. I'm counting on it being worth it and I want it bad. I've been feeling very low, uninspired, stupid, angry. But I have moments when I feel incredible, where I feel like I glimpse the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. This has been said countless times, but we have to take this day by day, minute by minute, moment by moment sometimes, even. I know when I look to far ahead, or behind for that matter, it becomes very daunting and overwhelming, very quickly. We're all going through the same thing, differently. We are alone, together. I know most of you, if not all, are aware of all of this, but it helps me to hammer it out, too. keep on keepin' on - fish [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/21/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 56 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,708 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $280 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55
18 years ago 0 1079 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hi Cincere, Hang in there, this day will end and things will look better for you tomorrow. I too have felt "Is this worth it?" And the answer is always yes. I try to visual what having a cig actually is like, and I know that the reality is it wouldn't be worth it. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [IMG]http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e58/saggysac/rauch03.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,089 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $373.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29
18 years ago 0 1079 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
You sure are making sense Cincere. You're right about only seeing the negative when we are feeling down. I must remember that the next time I am feeling blue. Darn crazy brain, messing with my happiness! Oh Well, You know what they say "Can't live with it, Can't live without it!" lol. Onward and upward girl. We're Ash Kickers Eh? [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [IMG]http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e58/saggysac/believers.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,111 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $381.8 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11
18 years ago 0 327 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
hi cin dont fight it a moment longer!!! :8o: :eg: its a mind thing that g/man is always telling us about why do we crave somthing we dont want???? :confuse: kick old nic in the ass and give in to being a non smoker walk away and laugh in his face! ;p he is playing with you! tell him to go shove it ware the sun dont shine! your stronger than him ,you can do this and it will get better :) jan xxx [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/13/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 125 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,134 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �493.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 48
18 years ago 0 5195 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Cincere...we all now that quitting sucks. A lot of us go through the period of having to put our attitudes in check. For me this was difficult. I had to give up my envy of those that still smoked. I had to tell myself that it isn't that I "can't" smoke. I "CHOSE" not to smoke. Something about it being a choice makes it easier. Also, you are in control of your attitude. This is a tough one because I yelled and screamed and said mean things to those I love as well. Think before you speak. Apologize often and explain what you are going through. The people that love you will be there and you will all look back one day and laugh about how you were when you quit smoking. Whatever you do....don't smoke. It is not worth it. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 229 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,588 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $801.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 20 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29

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