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13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3043

Sid and ~m,

It is so nice that after months of posting on here, I have finally found some people to actually post back to me. It helps a lot to read your thoughts and know we're in the same spot with our treatment.

I have decided to take the time and reread session 7 and 8. Tomorrow, I will start with my first negative core assumption. I know it will probably be painful but with you both here to help, I feel like I can do it. I can get through this with your help.

Thank you.

Rowsie

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 199

Hi ~m,

I agree going through all this is very hard...It is going to take a long time like they mention in session 8..They also mention taking on one core belief at a time...So maybe this would be a place to start, with just one..One small step at a time.

The main reason I am going through this process is because I am sick and tired of feeling bad and being depressed...I really want to learn how to quit beating up on myself...One thing that I have noticed is that my past has had a profound effect on the way I presently see myself...

When I tried start to relax and let myself enjoy reading I just couldn't do it. Than I started thinking why can't I let myself enjoy reading? What happened in my past to make this such a painful thing for me? It was very painful having to remember my childhood but the memories came back and it was kind of a purging for me and I finally understood the why. I had the core beliefs and thoughts that I didn't deserve to relax. That I was undeserving. That if I let myself relax something bad would happen..These assumptions that I had were not true...I realized I did deserve to relax and enjoy reading and that nothing bad would happen if I let myself relax..I do deserve to enjoy my life...

If you just uncover one negative core belief and assumption and challenge it and realize it is not true that it can change your

outlook on life and your feeling about your self into positive feeling about you...Change one negative core belief can change many others kind of like a domino effect...Like today I was able to relax and let myself work my quilting for a hour today...

It is really surprising how our core beliefs effect our later relationships in life..

So the reason to work on this session is to get a better understanding of ones self so that we can live a happier life and have better relationships in our lives....especially with the people care about and most of all so that we can learn to love ourselves again... I know this is a long post but writing things out helps me think things out and gives me a better understanding of my feelings and myself...

Thanks for asking the tough questions. Till next time,

Sid...

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1022

I'm glad we can support each other while trying to get through this session 8... any words of wisdom regarding how to do this from the "oldtimers" as well as the health educators...? Tell me, why is facing our core beliefs so scary.... so discombobulating... so difficult??? What is the benefit to actually processing through all this shuff? What's the point??????

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 199

Hi ~m and Rowsie

I too have been struggling with working on my core beliefs for a couple of weeks also...I have been depressed for the last few days and have decided to come back here to the depression center and work on my issues....I"ll probably give myself a few days or so to rest and than start reading the sessions again...I just think I need a break from the panic center and I was not giving myself the care that I needed......The depression center has some much more to offer on core beliefs and I think it is best to be in a group where we are working on some of the same issues...Anyway I am glad I found you here...

Hang in there...

Sid.....

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1022

Hi Rowsie... I'm glad you posted about this. I am struggling with session 8 too. I get started and then I get scared to go any further. I was doing so well with the CBT... feeling really positive and pushing myself to do things I haven't done in years. I was feeling so good. But the last couple of weeks... I just feel terribly lost... disconnected... lonely... and very, very, very depressed. I have not been this depressed in over a year. All of my thoughts are negative. I too feel like I need to start at the very beginning again because I can't remember how I got out of this before. I just can't remember anything. I'm so sad and I guess pretty angry with myself and maybe my therapist too. I don't know what to do really. Just waiting for it to go away is getting kind of old and isn't really working so well. I dunno................

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1853

Hi Rowsie,

I would say try to pick up where you left off. I don't think it's a case of having to start all over again. Understanding your core beliefs is an important part of the healing process. It will help you identify unreasonable thought processes that affect you and with this knowledge you will be better equipped to challenge negative thoughts.

It sounds like you have already come a long way and have given yourself the time to work through the program. When you are ready, and with help from members on this site, you can begin looking into your core beliefs.

As for going to the gym, every workout counts! Start with a 20 minute walk to stretch your legs and get your heart pumping.

Let us know how you do with Session 8!

Vincenza, Health Educator

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3043

The past two weeks have been pretty good. I really only had one bad day which was due to lack of proper sleep. But I haven't been following the program. I want to finish the program but I am at session 8 and I can't get motiviated to do the home work. I don't know if I want to dig into my core beliefs. I'm afraid of what I might find out about myself.

I spent all last week camping in the motorhome with my folks and 2 kids. I haven't been to the gym in almost two weeks now and I can't seem to get motivated to return.

How do I get back on track without starting from the beginning again?

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