Well for staters it was never as it seemed to me. My situation really doesnt allow it. But I havnt had these kind of feelings since 1983 ( for real ) there is still a chance. Its still okay, but it might take a while. Feeling dont break legal ties, even if they have been broken for years. We still message and express our feelings and send our little hearts. It just feels like it wont happen. This can mess with your thinking and focus as well. I actually had a rough week, plus had two big job interviews with this on my mind. I wasnt out looking for this, it just happened, then when the feelings came, they took over. Hope that made sense.