This has really turned in to a bad set back. Just the basics are hard right now. I havnt left the house in days. I want to sleep and thats it, but I cant, even at night. Last nigh I layed awake, was up and down for 7 hours. My head wont shut off. Then I finally do sleep and I dont want to wake up.
I have the fear feelings again, the hopeless and worthlessness back too. I lay awake and think bad senarios to deal with things and the holidays coming up with out my kids.
When all you had was family, you ruined it, they hate you and you have no one else. What do you do for the holidays?