I was in so much trouble today!
I wrote an e-mail to a person who was higher in the corporate ladder than me and used sarcasm. So I got a lecture! I felt like a nasty child being put in her place.
And that is not all Spring brings out the worst in me!!!
At Work:People are all excited and talk too loud and buzz all over the place. SIT at you desks and get some work done QUIETLY! Please! Stupid open concept.
On the roads: what is the point of speed limits and paint on the ground? 1/5 of the idiots who have a permit do not respect the basic rules. The traffic has finally gotten to me -like it usually does at the beginning of May.
At home: the kids are jittery and tired and will not decide if they are going to drive me crazy slowly or quickly. THe change in speeds is not good for me. My husband ...
Inside: I am full of RED and needles. Nothing is comfortable. I have a nagging headach at the bottom of my skull. My stomach is easily upset (even with the Nexium). And my back is weak. I want to cry and yell. i want to hit. I want to run away. Nothing is fun, and I am bored, bored, bored. If i could, I would live on coffee and yougurt and dark chocolate!
I wish my husband would look at me and say you seem odd, there is something wrong ... so that I could feel, no not feel, more like know that i am not imagining this all. I wish I had some exteral source in my EVERY DAY life that would tell me you seem different, odd, or ill. But my husband is a neanderthal with the emotional IQ of a cudgel.
what am i gonna do?
I do not wanna go back to work?
I wanna cry, cry cry and anything and everything sets it off.
I feel like and idiot!