part of being bipo is creativity ... I can close my attention and wander the woods without mosquitoes at leasure... ;p

I know that if I went gymming I'd be sure to go out and buy one of those cheap cd players and earphones that i could clip to my waistband and just try to get lost in my favourite music while i did all that repetitive execise that is so brilliant of you, Wildcat! I wish I could do that but my ankles and knees and hips don't allow for stationary bikes or for getting down on the mats for floor exercises ... but I do a set of exercises with a chair and others from a standing position... someday soon you'll be able to buy TV spectacles/glasses and play videos of running through forests and around lakeshores and zipping by all the creatures... just a host of visuals to please your eyes while you exercise!

now if only I can find some creative way to think about the torture machines... I pretended to be cycling to the waterfront parks on a warm spring afternoon - so I got 10 km "up-hill" done on the stationary bike. I was teasing my sister-in-law about walking up to the 8th floor on the "stair-master" do you all have any suggestions? a beginning of a story line to get me through a circuit?

This is great, Wildcat! Sharing affection with your husband and not letting the kids steal it away from you ALL the time is good! And the gym thing is exceptional - congratulations on making that big move... Patrick

wildcat, Thanks for sharing. You do have a lot on your plate, but you are progressing by taking some time to yourself and giving exercise a try. This can help with the everyday feelings and boost your metabolism. Continue on this path of taking you time and take it step by step. Take care of you first and the rest will fall into place :) Josie, Health Educator

Hi guys, As I started... there is a whole lot going on in my life - and a few of my fears are surfacing. My husband is an idiot sometimes. THank god it is only sometimes because he is always a slob!!! I love chouette-chouette and we have an amazing relationship! But there are moments when he feels, he jumps and then reflects. THis time he when job hunting. And we made plans, and we discussed what he wanted and what the family needed... and when he as about to go sign a good contract he refused. He was not ready to leave his current job, his current bosses/friends. he was not ready to move on. He needed to be reassured that his knowledge and skills still had a good market value! And he announces this to me on the phone ... in tears ... and says he is releasing 5 years of frustrations to his current bosses ... My daughter's questionaires for the pediatic-psychiatrist have been sent and we will wait for an appointment. for the time-being we are trying to figure out a budget to pay for the summer's day-camp in dance. I hope we answered correctly - I thing she looks to have an oppositional disorder? from the questions ... but my heart still says bipo ... and the Dr thinks touretts... My son is finally attention deficient without hyperactivity. He has lots of problems with separating visual information... so in a picture he is unable to look at the information and answer a question.. "there are 4 boys, how many have blue shirts?" sort of thing. No wonder he can't clean-up his room. He sees a huge mess and can't find a place to start -literally. Marks in french are still at 40% and math and the rest are at 75%+. He has wonderful friends and 95% of the parents love to have him over and playing with their kids... I am tired. I have been missing 3 hours of my necessary sleep for the past week and a half. My husband had been wandering around at night in his ball of tension. The kids has ear and throat infectionssss. Chouette also was sick and coughing up a lung like a bad smoker. but I have been hanging in there. i have not a major mood swing!!! so this is normal exhaustion/depression. I joined a gym with chouette's sister-in-law. We are the only two rolly-polly ones in there but it is really motivating to have someone to co-miserate with. I went twice this week and want to go to the 8pm power-yoga class tonite. So far I have done 45 mins of bike... 10 km. I am trying to be supportive and am taking full advantage of chouette's needs for confort and closeness. We were cuddling and watching the news together last night without a kid between us... they were on the sides and kept there! And I often reminded him that if he wanted to talk his sentences had to begin "you are so..." this way he couldn't start something having to do with the office and that job fiasco... I got a lot of compliments. bye