come crashing over me at the strangest times and from out of nowhere. I don't understand them and they wear me out. I can be perfectly happy or at least not unhappy when it happens. Its usually little things that set it off. The other day it was seeing snow fall on a music video. I felt like I could not breath and like my whole world was crashing down around me. I don't understand this and wish it would just all go away. I still feel the same way I did in my other post- to the world I am doing fine but thats because I don't let them know how much my world seems lost and alone. Mostly because they won't understand, I will just get the same ol " well you don't need to think that way , just get over it" lecture again and again. I hate these feelings, I hate that I can't seem to find my way out, I hate feeling trapped in this saddness.
