Hi Rayne & Moth,
Well it's finally good to hear from you Rayne. I haven't been up to par lately, actually things have gotten worse for me that is. I had to go back to work at least part time, doctor's orders and my diagnosis has changed to Bipolar disorder due to mania episode recently. I've spent over $800 gambling and losing, plus an additional $500-600 or more on clothes, shoes etc. See what I mean. The sex part or at least the interest has peaked in the past month as well. I just can't deny the symptoms any longer. I am on so much medication Rayne, for mood swings, depression, anxiety, and sleep. My doctor keeps changing the meds, increasing the doses to find the right combination for me. I am so worried about work due to health insurance benefits that I feel overwhelmed with all the decisions I have to make very soon. I just wish someone would just tell me what to do about this, but I know it is my decision and my doctor's recommendation whether I should remain working. My job cannot continue at partime so I need to decide if I can handle all the duties at full time status or not. I just can't concentrate, or seem to focus on my work and I am so much slower in completing things. I am afraid they just might fire me if I don't resign. So I am sorry for not getting back in touch either, but life is getting in my way. You know what I mean. Rayne, I am sorry that you lost your job and for the difficulty you are having as well, I can certainly relate. However, I don't think I can offer you any kind of support other than to respond to your posts. I feel my life is spiraling out of control at times so I don't want to say the wrong thing to anyone. Moth, I am glad you are getting some help too. Sometimes I think about stop taking all of these meds, but then I remember how bad the depression was and I don't think I could make another round of that without any meds this time. Just give it some time to level off. I find that some of the side effects from the meds due tend to go away after awhile. If they don't, write them down and do tell your doctor so you can be monitored more closely. I do like my doctor and trust him in what he is doing, which is probably the best thing a person could do in this situation. Because I certainly don't trus