You asked for suggestions to start recovery. As they say, admitting you have a problem is the first step. Sounds like you have taken other good steps too such as seeing a therapist and starting medication. And posting on here for advice and support. Don't give up on anything too soon. Unfortunately it probably won't go away overnight. Medications take a few weeks to work. It is frustrating to go through weeks with no change, then have to try something else and have to wait several more weeks to see if that will do any good. I have even been on medications that have made me feel worse. I don't know that very many people get the right thing on the first try. Don't give up just because one or two medications don't work for you. You say you are not sure what you are looking for in therapy. Don't give up on that either! It will take some time to become comfortable with the therapist and find those things that you need to talk about. Kendy made a good point saying a therapist leads you into figuring out some things for yourself. But it will take time. There will be days that you wonder if the things you are doing are worthwhile, but don't give up on them!