Ok, here's the problem, I've gone through alot of depression for many years and have never seen a doctor. The reason I haven't seen a doctor is because of money. See, I have gone through 3 major back operations in the pass 12 yrs. and have been unemployed for the pass 8 yrs. I have 3 children and my wife is the only one that works. I do not have insurance. I am at home alone all day and get very bored.I have major memory loss due to taking great amounts of medication (up to 52 pill a day) mostly pain pills.I no longer take that many pills. But I have been on large dosages for approx 12 yrs.I guess what I am asking for is some ideas for assistance in seeking some medical and mental help.I have always had the attitude that I wouldnt see a doctor for the simple fact that I would be using money that my wife needs to support this family. In other words Id rather do without than for her to spend her money on me going to a doctor.I took the depression test an I was evaluated as needing to see a phycritris immediately basically. Thanks