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Thank you all so much...I know I havent been on in quite a long time but...The last time I had an anxiety attack I passed out because I couldnt breathe...It took about half an hour for anyone to find me and take me to the hospital but Im okay now...I found blood and bandages on my wrists and arms when I woke up,I guess I got so scared because I couldnt stop what I saw and heard that I just decided to end it any way I could.I kept hearing horrid screams of pain and the...brutal words of...I think it was the voices of three men that kept telling me I was a ***** and a wench and...so much...I saw blood,knives and...I think a dead dog...Im not sure but it still scares me...Waking nightmares arent fun at all... Signed, Sara K.
19 years ago 0 142 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Sara: When I first joined this site I thought I was the only person who felt the way I did. Since then I've found a lot of good advice and incredible support. You do need to find someone to talk to. Check the phone book in you area for hotlines and support groups. Also try to find a professional who can help you with the panic. Begining therapy is very difficult but after a while you will discover that it works. Good Luck
19 years ago 0 12 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
sara, you are not alone, as we are all here for you. i'm 38 and have suffered black moods, and thought i was indeed crazy. there are alot of misconceptions out in the world, not to mention judgements passed by others. thankfully help is out there, support groups etc. hang in there. life is difficult some times. im praying for you. :)
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Hi Sara, I am 55 but I can remember How badly I felt at your age and school was a hard place for me too. I was such a mess when I was in my teens and at 18 I really was overwhelmed with all of the feelings I had. I agree with the others, please find someone to talk to.I talked to many different people. Look for a mental health clinic in your area. It took me many years to sort out the different things that caused me problems. I pray you will find help soon and continue to look to this board for some insight. Your new Friend, Sandee
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Hi Sara! You seem to be the closest to my age around here, I'm also 15. It seens like we're going through the same sort of thing. I've had 2 attacks in the past month, both of which unfortunately occured during school. I kept thinking that I'm not alive, I'm dead, I'm just a dead body sitting here in a desk. And so, I used my pecil to scratch at the back of my hand, until I saw blood. That is the only thing that I can do to convince myself that I'm really alive. Don't worry, [b]I[/b] don't consider you to be satanic, since I was tasting my blood way before I ever got diagnosed! I've never heard voices, at least not yet, but I have really weird thoughts, like, "I shouldn't think so loud, someones going to hear me." And I couple of times I was sure that the thoughts that I was having weren't mine, someone else was putting them in there. God, those things are NOT fun. But anyways, if you need to talk about, oh, whatever, just e-mail me. Seems like we've got a lot in common. -Gloves CalleyzKat@yahoo.com
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Hi Sara, I used to have similar experiences last summer, as far as the voices telling me what a failure I was, etc. I do have quite a bit of anxiety also, I think the dark is always scary to a certain extent, but you sound like this is almost overwhelming you. This site is a really good place for you to start talking, there are a lot of good people here. When you're finding it difficult at night, you could also try a hotline. Here in my town we have a women's crisis line for domestic violence and for mental health. The people will talk to you regardless of your problem, and sometimes just the voice of someone real can help a lot. You might check to see if there's something similar in your area. Also, consider seeing a counselor or therapist. I have to tell you I was almost more afraid of trying to talk to someone about it all than continuing to try to deal with it myself. I really couldn't see how it would help with what I was experiencing at the time, but looking back I have to tell you therapy has really been helping tremendously. Hang in there, you've made the first step by just reaching out for help through this site. It will get better and easier as you let people in to help you. :)
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Im 15 years old and just recently took a few tests to see if Im depressed.Most of them lead to the same thing,Yes.I'll go ahead and say what I can about my problems.I almost always feel scared and jumpy whenever Im alone in my room,it feels like theres something behind me or watching me over my shoulder.Sometimes I think I feel something touching me but theres never anything there.I've had seven anxiety attacks in the past six months.The first few occured when I was with my friends before school,I started feeling nervous for some reason and looking over my shoulder constantly.The others were from being at home alone or in a large place.I know Im scared to death of being alone on a wide road with no traffic or in a tunnel.I start to cry and panic whenever I'm alone in a dark place.I almost always start to freak out whenever Im alone,I think I hear things behind me when there's nothing there.About a year ago,I started hearing voices around me.Not in my head but around me.They would only talk to me when I was alone.Sometimes it was a man saying "Failure" or a woman saying "why wont you listen?".Once I heard a child say "Where are you,mommy?".Very often I hear laughing from someone,Im not sure who, but I end up laughing with them and most of the time it's an evil or psychotic laugh.I'll admit,for some reason I find it amusing to cause harm to other people though I've never done severe physical harm.I have often drawn blood from myself just to see it and taste it.I know most of you probably think Im psychotic or satanic but Im not.Im just very,very scared.Please,I'll take any comments I can. ~Signed, Frightened Sara K.

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