Dear Sebastian,
I feel for you and very much also for your mom. She had to deal with major losses over the past 6 months and is grieving. It is very hard to see people be taken away from us, knowing that we will never see them again. She must be in a lot of pain and to lessen the pain she is now taking Paxil. I have been on Paxil and did not experience any of the horrors you are talking about in your post. But I agree and appreciate your concern, that it would be better if your mom did not need those drugs. But, sometimes when lives gets unusually hard and painful and all of our energy sources have been depleted, it may be the only solution to get through the day. Your mom will not be on those drugs forever, it is a temporary solution. I am sure that her health care provider is keeping a close eye on how she is reacting and what is going on. That is a really good thing, that your mom went to a doctor that can help her. Also, maybe you can tell her about other help that is available for the proces of grieving, like supportgroups or psychologists that are specialized in grief.