Hey Amet! I have those days. Some days im like wow, I can conquer this and I feel great but then boom I get a panic attack and then everything ie my attitude changes. Ups and downs are part of learning and life. Just like an olympian who is training, there will be days that performance will be weaker/stronger than other days. Anxiety is brain training. You are training to become a an athlete of the mind and you will have great days and not so great days. But never lose sight of your goal which is to conquer this. But I know it's not easy in the mids t of an attack. I went on another trip this weekend to somewhere far north alone to meet my aunt and cousins there. I had such horrible panic attacks when everyone was sleeping. The longest night of my life. At 5am I was going to leave without telling anyone because I was trembling, afraid, had racing thoughts, my heart was pounding, felt like I wasnt there and disoriented. If you asked me at that time do I feel confident about overcoming anxiety I would first run off (because I cant sit still )and probably mumble no I cant handle this. So my point is when you dont feel confident about overcoming anxiety a. It's part of the territory of learning and b. it may also mean that youre still in the eye of the tornado of panic and nervous. In that situation, dont listen to it because it is not YOU, it is your thoughts about anxiety. If you identify with your thoughts, then these lies become truths. Just remind yourself - it's okay that I feel scared, uncertain, im still nervous and Ill let these feelings pass and the thoughts they produce. I hope I make sense.
