I've been dealing with anxiety, panic, and depression for over a year. I gave my medical resignation in October 2015. I spent most of 2016 in bed. Things started to look up around this last October. That's when I decided to get off of the Clonazepam. To do this I checked into a detox center where not only did they take me off of Clonazepam, but also the seroquel and Cymbalta. Its been 3 1/2 weeks since I've been back. A good part of this time I've been going through Cymbalta withdrawals. I can also say I have seen improvements in myself during this time as well.
Last night I had an argument with my husband over his family, yet again. Today has been a very hard day so far. This can be attributed to a few things. I've only been sleeping on an average of 4 hours a night over the last several days. I worked out yesterday hoping to sleep better, but didn't. I'm having a conflict with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law, at least I think I am, but we haven't really spoken, so I can't confirm this. All I can confirm is that I they haven't responded to my text......ugh. I had an argument with my husband last night when the last year of "being in bed" was thrown in my face. Although, I believe he would truly be a superhero if he hadn't felt anything from what our family has gone through over the last year.
These could all be triggers while coming off of everything.....right? I haven't had an AA/PA for about 6 wks., I think. I've been up and active for 4 days straight. Today, I had a hard time getting up. I made it to the treadmill with my husband's encouragement. Then I made lunch for my son and I. I rushed up to my room because I couldn't hold myself together. All my symptoms came back with a vengeance!
I'm panicking over the idea that I'm back. I don't know what to do with this. I don't want to go back! I want to keep moving forward, but my mind is ridiculously powerful right now. Today, my distraction has been t.v.-no medication still. I don't know if this is normal. I am frozen with the exception of what I did and this post I'm trying to capitalize off the last 4 days and what little I did this morning. How panic robs me of this within seconds is beyond me.
I need help. Please help.