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Davit

It all started two days ago, i went into my first meeting as a sales rep for a company alongside the CEO who is actually my friend. Luckily enough we had a sort of script down so i didn't need to worry too much about my thoughts going crazy with "what ifs" e.g. what if he thinks i look stupid in this suit. what if he notices my receding hairline. what if he thinks I'm incompetent. all sorts of crazy things you wouldn't believe. 

so after we walk in and make introductions i sit down and immediately begin to SWEAT! un controllably. you'd think i had just run 5 miles to get to that meeting! so of course i ask to be excused and say that i need to use the restroom. i go in there take 5 minutes to collect myself. wash my face and hands, and luckily when i got back inside the two were in full blown convo going back and forth. so there was not one bit of attention on me. 

so that day wasn't that bad, i mean... my friend asked me afterwards. "what was wrong? you were sweating like mad. did you have to take a ****?" I laughed and said yes.. but then we get to the next day. 

we have another meeting where it was even worse. it was a full on panic attack, i started sweating all over my body. I was drenched. i had to walk out of the meeting right after introductions to catch some fresh air. after five minutes of telling myself that sweating like I'm standing in the shower for no reason is ridiculous, i walked back in and excused myself from the meeting in which i went to the car and passed out till my partner was done with the meeting. 

please help. 

Oranges are compassionate, caring, artistic and intelligent in an observing and problem solving way. At  the other end of the scale are apples who are. Driven, care for themselves and theirs, collectors of objects rather than users of them. Money is the bottom line and they always come first. They are very competitive. and they handle stress by passing it on to others. Oranges on the other hand are vicarious so tend to get stress easier. Apples if they are artistic do it commercially. People can fall anywhere in between. Where you fall dictates how you will try to handle anxiety. Although oranges get anxiety easier they also get rid of it easier.

Davit

Davit

Are you willing to try something that will go against the grain with what you want to do. 

As long as you fight this it will stick around. There is a very good technical reason why but it would take a very long post to explain it. And I'm willing to, but not right now. I am not allowed to tell you to take the Xanax but I would if it was me. But I would accept it was necessary and I would accept that I have an anxiety disorder and the pill is temporary. It will stop the cycling and allow you to realize that it can be stopped. It is temporary and you will replace it with CBT but you can not do CBT till you have a calm mind. You can not be mad because that is negative. You are not having a set back so much as feeling guilt and that is negative. Negatives breed negatives and if you fight this and if you feel bad for it and if you just want it gone those thoughts are going to go into memory and colour your recovery. Recovery has to be done in order. First relaxation and coping skills then and only then thought restructuring. Till you can be calm you can not change your thought patterns. Negative will creep in. Calm includes such things as acceptance. By saying it is still here (as it should be at this point) what can I do about it right now? Study and practice relaxation because when you relax it goes into memory that there is something else besides panic, that panic really isn't necessary. Whatever the trigger is does not matter, what matters is that when it happens you think positive peaceful thoughts toward it so it goes into memory as that. If you accept it and that it is going to go away when you have enough positive thought to bury the negative it will. I can explain the technical reason why this works but again it would be a long post. You do not have a disease, this is a disorder, you are not broken. You are slightly off the track is all. You need to accept this and work to get back on track. Not accepting it will just get you farther off. Very shortly you will have the skills to cope and not need pills and then you can start to change how you think. At that point recovery speeds up. If you do the program, it is all set in order and you should start to get relief very shortly. If you decide you don't need pills, don't throw them out, that will just cause more anxiety, Just set them aside for in case. Once you have relaxation coping and acceptance you can start to tough it out. This is just like making a cake, if you do it right it works. 

Davit