It is still trying to snow. The odd small flake is coming down but the majority is hitting the mountains either side of me.
I have a candle stick in the middle of the table that looks like a mushroom. It is home to a little brown spider. Today he was building a web. He has been there a week or more and I don't know what he eats. I find him fascinating. Him/her.
He is just existing, no panic and only one rule, catch food and eat. Everything he does is for a logical reason in his mind.
But then he is not living with a thinking mind the way ours is. He has an inherited set of rules and patterns. He can do nothing else. Evolution has made him the best he can be by survival of the fittest. We on the other hand have choices. Not always the best choices but still ours. Such a gift and so poorly used. We have the ability to be happy yet choose not to be because it is what we have learned. Unlike the spider who lives his whole life doing what he does because he can do nothing else. He can not be anything else and will go to his death from starvation or be eaten. Neither happy or sad, no choice. Yet here are we with choice and we choose something destructive. He would never purposely do that. So why do we do it. Because we can and it won't kill us? Because we have evolved into this to fit in? Because it hasn't killed us off and allowed something better to exist? Evolution is no longer necessary, we have things set in place to protect us. Yet this life we live is slowly killing us and we don't even notice it. Stress shows up in strokes and heart attacks. Lost work time and abuse. And unlike the spider we have choice, we do not have to let life happen around us, we have choice. Yet spiders will be around when we no longer exist.
I have choice, I will not live in this negative destructive world. I will live in mine. A positive healthier world. Why not after all it is only the flip side of the coin and I control the toss. I can flip it over any time I want to.
Davit
Ps, I hope my little spider catches something soon, I've grown to like him.