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15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

3rd Day - getting shaky

Hey Cece! We have the same quit dates!! Yeah! I haven't been on here that much lately, I kinda felt that I just had to try and ignore anything smoking related for a few days to keep my mind off it! How are you doing?

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 207
Amount Saved: �78.14
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 15 Mins: 14 Seconds: 28

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

glad to be back!

Hi Mr Lucky! I think you and I are in a similar boat! I can stop, but I always seem to go back and smoke for a week, off, back on, off for a few days, back on, circle = torture! Its hard to even imagine never having a cigarette again. And its scary to know that you are only one cig away from undoing all your good work and being back in square one. No one can predict the future, I don't know if I will never smoke again. Right now, I'm happy. I haven't smoked in 10 days and it has been the easiest quit I've ever had, up till now. Yesterday and today, I started craving and it knocked me a bit but I'm good, its just part of the process! Just do whatever works for you, but remember that many people on this site understand where you are coming from and have been there as well. I think I'm gonna take their advice from now on, there's no such thing as one.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 207
Amount Saved: �78.14
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 15 Mins: 15 Seconds: 3

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

Strange Day

Hey, just checking in! Had a harder time today, on the go since 6am, work, driving all over the city, stuck intraffic, coming home and vacuuming half the house and other housework, quick take out for dinner and sat down for 30 mins. Its 11pm now and all I was looking forward to was to soak in a nice hot bath with bubbles and then go to bed all relaxed. Instead, my hot tap on the bath won't turn for some unknown reason to me. So not only is my body tired and aching from the housework etc, but I reckon I pulled a muscle in my arm trying to turn that bloody tap. The top came off the tap and I threw it against the wall, it nearly hit me when it bounced back! Anyways, I cried, sat on the floor like a two year old child, stuck my lip out, folded my arms and just kind of whimpered for a few mins. Now I'm here, typing this and a smile is coming back to my face. I've had the anxious feeling in my chest all day, I know from past experience that it can be my detriment so thats why I really just wanted to relax for a while. I still have the unused nicotine inhaler in my purse and if I feel like I need a cig, I just think of the inhaler first and just think that I don't want to put nicotine back into my system. I find it strange because when I used to think of a cig, I saw it as a cig and I want a cig. I never saw it as nicotine- a drug that I am addicted to. Its a learning experience. I feel a bit rotten at the moment so I'll probably just head to bed and I'll check in with you tommorrow. Goodnight all!

Paula

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 207
Amount Saved: �78.14
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 15 Mins: 26 Seconds: 11

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

Strange Day

I feel much different to any other quit. I have found it much easier and to be honest, I barely noticed any cravings or difficulty the first week. It just seems harder now but not nearly as hard as the past so its good. At the beginning with the zyban, I was really giddy and happy and laughing but now I'm just normal and going through each day.

I haven't had any junkie thoughts to report and I haven't had to fight any battle in my head, my head just says, i just don't want one. But at the back of my throat and in my chest, i feel weird, I don't understand it. Its hard to describe but the cravings I have for cigarettes are in my chest and the back of my throat. Just drinking icy water and taking deep breaths. I'm stressed in work at the moment so I presume its just the physical act of taking a drag of a cig and feeling it in my thraot and chest thats the problem. I have the nicotine inhaler for emergencies and I don't really want to use that so I'm ok for now.

Paula

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 10
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 230
Amount Saved: �86.83
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 16 Mins: 25 Seconds: 33

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

please share your routine w/ me

Hi Neen!

We are close together in our quits, you are a day ahead of me. I have been on and off this site for 3 years with my attempts to stop smoking. The reason for this is because I always just wanted one, for closure, to say goodbye, for some fantastic reason that I would come up with. I must have done it 12 or more times, stop for a few days or weeks and then have 'one'. I was a slow learner!

What happened with me was, I'd have that nagging, the craving and a tightness in my chest that I just knew that I needed a cigarette. I'd fight the craves as long as I could sometimes, and other times I gave in immediately because I knew I would eventually. I would have one, it was ok, didn't really do much for me, I wasn't particularly happy about the fact that I was smoking. Then, I'd look at my quit meter and it wasn't the same, I knew that I haven't been smoke free for 9/10 days and that added to the nagging. Everytime I had one, I was back to smoking a pack a day within a few days of the first 'one'.

The nicotine is out of your system at this stage. It is purely psychological. By smoking, you just put more nicotine back into your system which then awakens the beast and it gets hard- if you thought the nagging was bad before just wait till you igtnite that spark again. It will hold onto you for dear life but you just have to let it go, and walk away.

The crazy thing, and this is seriously mad, I felt guilty for betraying the cigarettes, my friends, when I quit in the past. Very odd!

I have found the last two days to be the most difficult and I'm not sure why. The after dinner smoke is still a killer! But my house is absoluetly spotless! I still haven't gotten my head around the concept that I can never have another cigarette, ever, and that really does scare me at the moment. But i know that I used it as a crutch to deal with things that I find stressful or upsetting and thats when I have the strongest cravings, so I'm interested to see what emotions I'm actually blocking up. If I can learn to handle my emotions, I can handle the cravings and I will become a stronger, more confident person in the process.

I'm ranting on now but trust me, saying goodbye to cigarettes by smoking a cigarette, is not the path you want to start walking down because you will just keep going around and around and around in a vicious circle. Please take my word for it, I did it for three years and I'm praying that I won't be so stupid this time round!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 10
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 230
Amount Saved: �86.83
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 17 Mins: 7 Seconds: 22

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

weekend pledge

Count me in too! It will be tough! Nan's 80th brithday party and all the family together and a lot of alcohol and sing songs I reckon. I think I'll offer to be the designated driver so I'll stay away from drink. I'm glad you're not allowed smoke indoors here, all I have to do is stay inside. Feeling weird today, I can smell someone with a cigarette from across the street and I think that if there were cigs in my house at the moment, I would smoke them. Wish me luck!
My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 11
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 253
Amount Saved: �95.51
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 18 Mins: 38 Seconds: 26

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

pictures on your posts

did it work?
My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 11
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 253
Amount Saved: �95.51
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 18 Mins: 39 Seconds: 8

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

pictures on your posts

didn't work last time, will it work this time?
My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 11
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 253
Amount Saved: �95.51
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 18 Mins: 39 Seconds: 16

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

i'm giving myself another great reward !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey! Congratulations on 3 months!! That really came quick! I have no idea what a smoker is though!! I think its a barbeque, is that right? I think you should have a little party to break in your brand new smoker and to celebrate your 3 months!

Well done!!

Paula

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 16
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 368
Amount Saved: �138.92
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 2 Mins: 30 Seconds: 9

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 127

Well, I've blown it again

When you hear things like that it kind of brings it closer to home, doesn't it. My mam died 6 years ago of cancer at the age of 45, and she never smoked in her life. It is possible to quit, you have to keep working at it. I started this post one month ago, I had slipped up once again and I was sick of fighting the craves day in and day out. I've been on and off this site since 2005 trying to stop, the longest I have made it in all those attempts is 3 weeks.

I knew that I couldn't do this cold turkey and I brought together all of the help I could get.

I gave myself 7-10 days to prepare before my new quit date
I spoke to my doc and got a prescription for zyban and started taking that
I bought a nicotine inhaler and have it in my purse everywhere I go (haven't needed it though!)
I got a stop smoking book by Paul McKenna and have listened to the cd every night before bed for nearly 3 weeks
I had a fair idea what my triggers were
I thought about my alternative- smoke until I die.
I had the support of the wonderful people on this site

The night before my quit I had no confidence and had no idea how I would manage to get through an hour without a cig but slowly and surely I suprised myself, the hours ticked over into days, and soon they will tick over into months and hopefully then into years. I know I can never have a cig again, and sometimes it does feel impossible but you just have to keep working through it, if you want it. I can honestly say this time round, I do.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 5/26/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 16
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 368
Amount Saved: �138.92
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 2 Mins: 31 Seconds: 6

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