I am pretty much where you are as well in terms of not being able to stop once I start but I have joined this site now & am determined that it is going to work!
I went out on Friday night for a drink & ended up drinking far far more than the people I was with ~ I have the cringy memory of getting louder & louder & not even being able to pay for the cab! It is time for a change ~ I am turning 40 in Jan & I want to be in a far better place than I am in just now but I am very apprehensive about this as I have tried to cut down before! Looking forward to supporting and being supported on this site
Thank you for replying to me & you are quite right I did not intend to drink ~ it is now Sunday & I have got that panicky feeling that I always get the day after a hangover ~ I want this all to go away but I am going to keep at it!
Thank you I have to be honest I am not enjoying this right now but I know it is going to be worth it ~ at the moment all I can see is challenges mainly social events as I am not ready to admit this to people as yet although when I have nailed it I might! I am so glad I found this site
Good luck I am new to this site as well ~ feeling pretty determined but it is one step at a time just now ~ for all I know it might always be! We can do this together :)
I think I am looking forward to not feeling constantly guilty & ashamed ~ I am worried though that I might struggle to forgive myself for some of the things I have done whilst under the influence ~ I think I am also looking forward to feeling proud of myself & that I am a strong person after all I think for me the key will be to keep logging on & keep writing ~ thanks for the message though I appreciate it a lot.
I prefer to drink alone as well as then it feels as though I am free to do it without worrying about what people think ~ I don't tend to drink every night but once I start I find it incredibly hard to stop & always drink more than I intend too! It is a conversation that I don't really have with my husband much though I love him as I find it too raw just now but I will have that conversation at some point xx
My husband is virtually a teetotaller & one of the things I am looking forward to about this whole process is the improvement in our relationship as it is a major bone of contention ~ keep going!
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