Hello, I?m New Here
Ha ha Tim, actually I'm a pleasure to be around!
Or at least not too bad - trying to keep my conflicts internal. And probably I could explain things a bit better.
I live alone, and it's the weekend, so, it's been easy enough not to interact with people and I had no plans with friends this weekend. Also, since my Mom passed away just over 2 years ago, there is hardly anyone, and no one daily or close to it, that I speak with on the phone anymore. I did call a friend who doesn't mind talking on the phone yesterday, a quitter with Champix (and swears by it for cigarettes) who then went to cigars and now does a vapour/cigar combo, who I just didn't want to tell just yet but will probably be the first person I tell. I also was at work for a bit today with a coworker who quit 10 years ago now I think and is one of the people who I think "if he can do it, I can do it". But we had enough other things going on for why we were both at work on Sunday, I just didn't feel like going there with him. He was not a happy quitter at the start and I'm trying to be so I didn't want to be projected on . I also have a brother who I could call and tell...but I've told him enough times before about quitting that I'm sure he'd be rather skeptical, understandably - I want to have a duration of days under my belt before I tell him to feel stronger to do so. I know he'll be happy and proud of me. Anyone else to tell would be a reach out through phone calls - which most friends and family tell me they don't like to talk on the phone - or I could text/bbm/email/facebook. I don't feel like doing that, I think it's more impersonal. I have a whole topic that I will write for therapeutic reasons on my own one day (not for this Forum) about Grief in the Social Media Age! It's been tough finding people to talk to even though I have lots of friends and some family, only a select few will talk to me on the phone and I don't live near most of them. One thing though, smoking through it hasn't helped at all, that much I know.
So, onward I go and I'm still hanging in! I'm finding the couple times I've been in the car haven't been too bad. And that was my all-time favourite place to smoke - driving far, driving short trips, wherever. If I can do that without feeling like I'm missing out, and I didn't today, I know I've got this beat! Thanks for checking in Tim.