I came off drinking for 5 days. I felt like I was energetic and for once in control. I had a friend stop by with a case of beer. I'm a sucker for peer pressure. I was embarrassed to tell my friend I'd quit. I had a few. Under the allusion I was back in control. Next day. I wake up with the shakes, sweats and panic. I call my local delivery service to bring me a case. I drink before its time to work. I feel tired and like ****. (Excuse the cussin in southern) I wanted to walk on out and fall asleep. I have realized that I had the potential to not drink. And how good or made me feel. (The not sleepin and energy was difficult to deal with. But id rather have that. Today. I gave in due to weakness. I drank. I still feel l still feel I can control it. I can't. I know in my heart I have what is called an addictive personality. However I managed to quit smokin. But the moment I drank. I'm back in. Tonight. I suggested we go out with carry on's abs check out the flooded dam. Not paying attention I fell into a hole and broke my ankle. Simply cause I'm a dumb drunk. Tho long it'
