Never. I would be the last one to grab a plate to eat and that too it will just a small portion of i eat now. But my hand will always hold a glass/bottle of something. Later I read the book called Alcoholics Anonymous, i realized i am an alcoholic and have lost the ability to control my drinking due to phenomenon of craving that keeps us drinking the moment we put 1 glass of alcohol in my body. And then the obsession to drink leads me to that 1st drink the next day. And always restless, irritable and discontent in forced sobriety.