Hi everyone
Hope everyone is keeping safe and well during this time in our lives, how is everyone doing? I have decided to go to online aa meetings, I find they help me , I know f2f are better but for me right now this is what I think is working, I mean in the end its what actually works for you ,
I have come to realize something really big last while, I had some drinks I noticed my before , during and after feelings. I have high anxiety always , so before , I have anxiety and worry and worry . when I have a drink that worry is gone , I feel good, relaxed and no worrying! I chase that feeling all night , next morning I am hung, physically ill, anxiety has come back even worse and shame and guilt ( even if I don't act like and ass) is there too. crazy ,. I have been thinking about these before , during and after feelings a lot , the pattern , the cycle . it literally is what happens every time. I thought it was big and wanted to share . has anyone else experienced this type of realisation? anyhow I really hope everyone is doing well .